I need to think things through
Probably no one will read this or comment or care or whatever. But oh well, I need to use this to get things off my chest, if my grammar is bad here please forgive me.
It’s hard to know what to say, once you tell yourself you have a blank space to clear the junk out of your mind. Maybe a list:
1. I need to stop being so lazy, get out of bed. (That one’s easy…)
2. Take nothing for granted, I have had a lot of things in my life on a plate - for one my mum and dad have always taken care of everything.
3. I have real problems, deep-rooted emotional problems that I need to sort out, they are getting in the way of me, me being Iain Alex Ridley - the person who seems a dream, a life time away. The person I look at each day, the reflection is a lie and I can’t see myself.
4. I need to make choices right now, I seem to be waiting for ‘something’ to happen. Destiny/life/fate and all that is a process only I can grasp.
5. Take lots of photos, if you’ve noticed my words are very cliche and boring, you’d be right as I feel image/and imagination is the only way I can express myself. The lens is my third eye (a nod to spirituality third eye)
6. Find myself. Find myself. FIND MYSELF!
Quote
Ordinary riches can be stolen, real riches cannot. In your soul are infinitely precious things that cannot be taken from you.
A change
A confession that I must write, if I do not then I wish not to exist. I am not happy, I must change my life - I cannot continue as I am, I am not even a shell any-more. From this moment and every more I have to change, from within or I will crumble and collapse.
From now on I will do everything in my power to exist how I want, to do good, to actually realise who I am and change into somebody I am proud to be. Now is the beginning, I’ve hit rock bottom and lost everything within that made me feel ok. Now is the time to regain and reclaim.
I am iain, we are alone. I take photos and like film.
